Nuala O'Faolain
-- a journalist and feminist who gained international
fame with her outspoken 1996 memoir Are You Somebody?
-- has died of lung cancer, weeks after revealing her
illness on state radio. She was 68.
She died Friday
at a hospice in south Dublin and will be cremated Tuesday
after a Catholic mass, her family said.
O'Faolain
emphasized during her April 12 radio interview that she had
no faith in the afterlife, and instead rued the
imminent loss of her lifetime's accrual of education,
friends, and experience.
O'Faolain, who
was a University College Dublin lecturer in literature
before becoming one of Ireland's best-known journalists,
said the lung cancer had spread to her liver, and
brain tumors had ruined her ability to concentrate.
''Beauty means
nothing to me anymore. I tried to read [Marcel] Proust
again recently, but it has gone -- the magic has gone. It
amazed me how quickly my life turned black,'' she said
in the wide-ranging, deeply reflective interview with
state radio RTE.
The broadcast
inspired a national discussion about how Ireland cares for
its terminally ill and a wave of sympathy for O'Faolain over
her uncompromising account of her desolation.
O'Faolain
dismissed the idea of Heaven awaiting her. ''I can't be
consoled by the mention of God. I wish everyone comfort for
those who believe, but I cannot,'' she said. ''To me
it's meaningless.''
O'Faolain said
she was consoled only by the knowledge that so many other
people died in much more horrific circumstances.
''In my time,
which is mostly the 20th century, people have died horribly
in Auschwitz, in Darfur, or are dying of starvation or dying
multiply raped in the Congo ... horribly like that. I
think how comfortably I am dying, I have friends and
family, I am in this wonderful country, I have
money,'' she said.
''There is
nothing much wrong with me, except I am dying.''
O'Faolain worked
as a television producer and reporter for the British
Broadcasting Corp. and RTE, and gained a national readership
as an Irish Times columnist starting in the mid
1980s.
She became a
best-selling author on both sides of the Atlantic in 1996
with the publication of Are You Somebody? It was
initially intended to be a collection of her Irish
Times columns but evolved into an unusually
intimate, even risque memoir.
In it, she
recounted her tough family upbringing with a philandering
father and alcoholic mother, descent into her own alcohol
abuse, and a lifetime struggle to attain professional,
social, and sexual fulfillment.
The book, which
initially had a print run of just 1,500 copies, touched a
particular nerve among adult female readers because of its
exploration of the soul-searching of a middle-aged,
unmarried, childless woman. It caused headlines at
home because of her candid admission to having a
lengthy lesbian affair with a prominent Irish journalist,
later identified as Northern Irish civil rights
activist Nell McCafferty.
The memoir's U.S.
popularity transformed O'Faolain into a celebrity
winner of hefty book advances. She published three more
books: the novel My Dream of You in 2001, a
second volume of memoirs titled Almost There in
2003, and the biography The Story of Chicago
May in 2005.
In February,
O'Faolain suffered partial loss of movement on one side
after working out in a New York gym. Later that day, she
recalled in her RTE interview, a doctor told her she
had inoperable cancer.
O'Faolain
declined chemotherapy after a few emotionally agonizing
sessions and instead traveled Europe with the help of close
friends until the disease confined her to a nursing
home.
At the time of
her cancer diagnosis, she had been offering weekly RTE
radio commentary on the U.S. presidential race from her
second home in New York City.
O'Faolain had
several longtime relationships, with McCafferty and with
prominent male artists and intellectuals, but never married
or had children, a frequent theme in her writing. She
is survived by five sisters and a brother. Two other
brothers predeceased her. (Shawn Pogatchnik, AP)