Actor Cheyenne Jackson took to social media on Monday to share that he “fell off the wagon” after being sober for nearly 10 years.
“VULNERABLE is what I’m feeling today,” the gay star of Call Me Kat, American Horror Story, Glee, and more posted to Instagram. “After nearly a decade of sobriety I fell off the wagon. I’ve been carrying a lot of shame. Scared to share it. But I know it can help someone so here I go. I didn’t want to disappoint anyone who has looked up to me as a sober person so I’ve been just burying it away. I took my eye off the ball. I stopped doing what I needed to do to keep myself on the path of my personal integrity.”
He added that he could have blamed the pandemic or a host of other issues like mass shootings, the current polarization of the country, or the death of his Call Me Kat co-star Leslie Jordan, "But the truth is, I thought I had it all handled."
"I thought ‘I got this.’ But I don’t," he shared in the post. "I am a work in progress. Always. Thank you to my support system. Thank you to @jamieleecurtis and so many others who have been there for me. It means everything to me. If you are out there struggling, you are not alone and there is a solution. I love you. And I love myself today and that feels really good to say. #progressnotperfection.”
Jordan died last October at age 67, having suffered what the Los Angeles County coroner called a “sudden cardiac dysfunction” that caused him to crash his car into a building in L.A.
Jackson appeared on a recent digital cover of The Advocate. In his interview, he spoke about both the joys and challenges of career, marriage, and parenthood. He and his husband, entrepreneur Jason Landau, have 6-year-old twins, Willow and Ethan.
Tuesday, Jackson posted a follow-up video on Instagram, thanking everyone who expressed support for him. He received more than 2,000 comments, texts, and direct messages after the original post, he said.
“I just feel so loved and I feel so grateful,” he said, noting that many people shared deeply personal stories. He said he is recommitting to his sobriety.
He added that he once prided himself on being a “lone wolf” who didn’t need others, but he’s realized that doesn’t work for him. “I need people and I need support,” he said.