2020 was a chaotic year for everybody — and morgxn is no exception. In March as the pandemic began, the exact same day that the singer/songwriter was dropped from his label, Billie Eilish posted about him on her Instragram, citing morgxn's song "Home" as one of the inspirations for her Grammy Award-winning song, "Bad Guy."
"It was like, How do you hold all of that? How do you hold disappointment? How do you hold fear? How do you hold excitement? How do you hold what hurts? It was basically like, What am I going to do? Am I going to stay home and cry, as I did, and quit?" morgxn asks.
He found his way through with music, starting with the song, "Wonder." morgxn reached out to his fans — they call themselves a "fxmily" — who recorded themselves at home. "We made this beautiful video and put out that song and it just blew up. Streaming took off. It went viral on TikTok. It had all of these things and this is all 100 percent independent. I still am a 100 percent independent, but it was basically the way that I found my way through the last year was by this making of this EP."
"Wonder" has now been streamed over 3 million times on Spotify has taken on a life of its own as its been remixed and reimaigned by different artists and DJs. It quickly became its own thing, a whole and separate work from MERIDIAN: vol 1., morgxn's EP that's just been released.
The title came to him in a dream, which is how things tend to work when you're a Pisces, he says. Meridian refers to the "channels in the body where energy flows," he says. "It's the title because it's all about how things change and how things flow and how, if you're resisting it, it won't work." Into MERIDIAN: vol 1, morgxn channeled the pain and the drama of 2020. It includes the tracks "Losing Myself" and "How Do You Hold What Hurts."
MERIDIAN: vol 2 (due out later this year) continues the story and lets listeners into how he pieced himself back together. Vol 2 will carry over one thing that's undeniable in Vol 1: the driving, infectious beats that give you no choice but to pick yourself off the couch and dance. It's impossible to listen to "Losing Myself" and not imagine you're back at a dark club, popping against sweaty strangers on the dancefloor.
And eventually, as those spaces do begin to reopen, it's morgxn's song, "Porcelain," that asks, "What do you want to feel going into this reopening?"
"There are so many unknowns, but the lyric, I want to feel brand new again is sort of the thing that is becoming a mantra for me as I'm entering this unknown," he says.
This interview was condensed from a conversation with morgxn on The Advocate's Instagram. You can watch the full interview below.
MERIDIAN: vol 1 is out now.