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    43 Portraits of a Gay Man's Back-to-School Fantasy (and Nightmare)

    Christopher Harrity

    Christopher Harrity is the Manager of Online Production for Here Media, parent company to The Advocate and Out. He enjoys assembling online features on artists and photographers, and you can often find him poring over the mouldering archives of the magazines.
    Christopher Harrity is the Manager of Online Production for Here Media, parent company to The Advocate and Out. He enjoys assembling online features on artists and photographers, and you can often find him poring over the mouldering archives of the magazines.
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    Did you ever have one of those dreams you were back in school?

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    Did you ever have one of those dreams you were back in school?
    The only difference was that now I was grown up.
    But the same guys I went to school with were there too.
    I remember smoking in the boys' room and getting into ... trouble.
    We were all like ghosts, just lurking in the classrooms, waiting, for what I don't know.
    The same dramas, the same bullies, like we were all still locked in time.
    But our well-kept school was in shambles now.
    There was this deadly tension and a horrible quiet.
    I wanted to wake up, but I was too curious to see what would happen next.
    And there were boys I wanted so much, but I was too afraid to say anything.
    We were strangely grown up.
    In an all-male school, there are all kinds of romances. But you don't talk about it.
    You just pretend it's not really happening.
    It was as if I were there and not there.
    I saw all the things I couldn't see back then.
    Things I suspected were borne out.
    I was so afraid then to let them know, but these dream people all saw me.
    You had to act like you didn't want them.
    They must have all known I was in love with them.
    They used my affection against me.
    I knew they could see it in my face.
    As I grew up I sought that vulnerability.
    Sometimes it happened, which only made it worse when it didn't.
    Patterns repeat and repeat.
    No one was safe from my imagination.
    My fantasies became absurd, reckless.
    But yes, I thought about my teachers too.
    We were all the same but different, changed, wise.
    Something had been unleashed in this dream.
    Pretenses were dropped.
    What parts of me did this dream represent?
    The most painful parts were revisited.
    Would I ever wake up?
    How did I fit in this dream?
    I relaxed into it and let the dream take me further in.
    I wanted to know where this would take me.
    The fight was over. Surrender time.
    I prayed for resolution.
    Reunion as a word took on a new meaning.
    I reunited with myself.
    In that moment of revelation there was relief.
    All the different aspects of myself spoke.
    The past never stops happening.
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