Iwas a performer
at Colt Studio Group's 40th anniversary party in San
Francisco, the mayor's office having proclaimed
February 23 as
Colt Studio Day. That declaration, according to
conservative commentator Bill O'Reilly, demonstrated
once again why San Francisco is considered the
nation's "Sodom and Gomorrah." I
thought of the event simply as a fun party where I met
my friend Gage Weston--Colt superstar, personal
trainer, Iraq war veteran.
I was introduced
to Gage--and his partner, Luke Garrett--in the
back of a Hummer limo packed with 10 other Colt
As I sat across
from Luke and Gage, a TV set displayed both of them
naked, aroused, and making out in front of a barn. Feigning
nonchalance, I ventured, "Do you guys like
watching yourselves, or is it weird?" Gage
"I like it, but for technical reasons. I learn what
angles are best for me lighting-wise, what I could do
better next time, and where I should suck my gut
in." All I could think was, That's exactly
how I feel watching myself on Desperate
Housewives! A kinship was formed.
Before he was a
Colt model, Gage served four years of active duty as a
marine and two years as part of the military's
"stop-loss" program, in which service
members can be forced to stay after their contractual
enlistment dates. It was during his involuntary extension
that his unit was sent to Iraq. Gage fulfilled his
service requirement and was honorably discharged.
"We didn't know they hadn't found any
weapons of mass destruction until we got back,"
he told me. "But we all kind of knew we were
going there for oil. The minute we crossed the border from
Kuwait, we saw the Iraqis had set the oil fields on
out?" I asked.
were out in the Marines, you would've gotten your ass
kicked in boot camp," he said.
"It's all about tearing you down to build you
back up. But when we were getting shot at and you knew
your unit would die for you, and you for them, none of
that seemed to matter."
I asked if there
were other gay soldiers. "If everyone serving in Iraq
came out, you'd lose half the forces over
there," he said. "I always knew there
were a lot of gay marines because I always saw other guys
discharge Gage appeared in an episode of Work Out. He
received lots of supportive e-mails from former enlisted
men. One wrote, "I always thought you might be
gay because you spent so much time in the gym."
I asked Gage if
he had a message for gays and lesbians now serving in the
military. "I'd like to say 'Be
yourselves,' but you'd be kicked out. Just
do your duty and know that people will love you for who you
are," he said.
Well, maybe not
Bill O'Reilly. On his show he berated an ally of San
Francisco mayor Gavin Newsom for honoring "gay
porn" (maybe straight porn would be fine). Now
the mayor is scrutinizing proclamations more closely.
truth: You can be a porn star and a hero. Homoerotic and
wholesome. Gay and patriotic. While Bill O'Reilly
fights for the moral soul of San Francisco and the
city wastes its time caving in to blowhards, the
flames of war burn out of control.