Last month, Chrissy Teigen came under fire after Courtney Stodden revealed messages Teigen had sent them urging the nonbinary model to kill themself. On Monday, Teigen posted an apology on Medium for her past behavior.
Stodden told The Daily Beast that Teigen “wouldn’t just publicly tweet about me to take a ‘dirt nap’ but would privately DM me and tell me to kill myself.”
In the Medium post, Teigen said, “Not a day, not a single moment has passed where I haven’t felt the crushing weight of regret for the things I’ve said in the past.”
She acknowledged she used to attack celebrities to try to get attention. Teigen said that when she saw a celebrity being insulted on social media, she’d add to the fire. “I thought it made me cool and relatable if I poked fun at celebrities,” she said.
“I was a troll, full stop. And I am so sorry,” Teigen said.
In the post, Teigen explained that the person who would use social media to demean and insult people wasn’t who she is anymore.
“The truth is, I’m no longer the person who wrote those horrible things. I grew up, got therapy, got married, had kids, got more therapy, experienced loss and pain, got more therapy and experienced more life. And got more therapy,” Teigen said. The model and TV personality said she was privately reaching out to those she had insulted previously.
Teigen tweeted to Stodden in May that was “ashamed and completely embarrassed” by her past actions. “I’m so sorry, Courtney. I hope you can heal now knowing how deeply sorry I am.”
Also on Monday, fashion designer Michael Costello, posted on Instagram that he had been on the end of Teigen’s attacks in 2014. He said he received a comment from Teigen telling him he’d never find work again following what Costello said was a photoshopped racist comment that went around the internet until it was taken down by Instagram. He added that after Teigen’s comment he couldn’t land a job.
“So many nights I stayed awake, wanting to kill myself. I didn’t see the point in living,” he wrote. “As a result of what Chrissy Teigen did to me in 2014, I am not okay. I may never be okay.”