Aussie bum

When I was 19 I went to Sydney with my mates, and everywhere we went model agents came up and gave me their card. My mates said, "Look, this is an opportunity to do something and get off the farm." A week later I was in Italy doing the catwalks, surrounded by supermodels. I was like, What the hell am I doing here? I didn't handle it very well; I didn't understand that I was there because I looked good. I thought I was there because I looked strange. I had to go back to my farm. It was all too scary.

In January I was beaten up by a gang of guys who left me for dead. They were taunting some gay guys, and I tried to placate them. I told them that I was gay, and they started beating the shit out of me. I thought, Now I know what it's like to be absolutely hated to the point that people will risk going to jail just to vent their hate on my body. I felt as though I was a real gay man.

Soon after, I met my boyfriend, Sherif, in Sydney. He is definitely the one for me. He came to the farm and was a horseman in half an hour. That takes years. He just fitted on the saddle and fitted on the farm. He fits in my life. Everything I ever wanted I found in one person.

Ninety percent of the reason I went on Big Brother was to break down that wall of prejudice, especially for country people. I thought, Holy hell, this is the best possible microphone to middle Australia. Coming out on TV was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I couldn't even do it standing up--I had to sit down because my knees wouldn't hold me up. An hour later I broke down. Holy shit, what the hell have I done? The reality of 2 million people watching the show hit me.

Recently three guys said to me, "I was the biggest homophobe, I used to bash gays, and now all I want is gay mates." That put the icing on the cake. They couldn't say enough about the change they'd gone through just by watching, understanding, and getting to know me. Before I went in the house, I got abused: "fucking faggot, poofta..." Now I get "Hey guy, love you, mate!" Suddenly, Australia loves gays.